I know what you think.
You think that I'd look good when I'm 110lbs (50kg), with a BMI of 17.5.
You also think I'd look even better at 99lbs (45kg), or BMI 15.8.
Yeah. You do, and you're right. The only time I actually remember you thinking I was too skinny, I was when I dropped to 90lbs (41kg), BMI14.4, and that was after two weeks of illness (most of the time I was actually unconscious). And I was 16.
But the thing is, I know you're right. I know you are, and I understand that you're ashamed of me right now. So I'll get better Dad, I promise. I can't promise to reach 99lbs,because I don't think I can do it while working this job, but I'll get better. The first 2.3lbs are gone.
So I'm now 137.3 (62.3kg), BMI 21.8. It's horrible, but it's the right direction at least. The first step of a long stairway to heaven.
Do you reckon maybe Steve will want to marry me if I drop 20 lbs? Let's try and see, shall we?
PS thanks for your comments, you lovely butterflies. I love you, really.
2 comments:
oh lovey i'm glad you found me again. you can do this, darling, you got this.
Lucy, lovely...
I'm not sure yet. Yes, you're right, I put the blog down, there was too much going on so that I couldn't handle it. But now i'm thinking of starting it again. I'm not sure yet tho... Still got to sort some things out......
I miss you too. Sending you all the strength I got to Italy!
love
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