20 June 2021

Signs of "normal" ahead

 The moment I stepped into the venue, a song from my pre-teen years started playing. The venue was entirely reserved for our party, and the sound was a bit eerie. It so sounds like my life with this job, and it goes, more or less like this (with some minor, liberal changes in the translation).

It's useless to talk about it, you'd never understand. I follow you anywhere, just to see where you lead me; I feel a bit childish, but I know you won't stop the dream of living in a movie.

And suddenly, you came into my life - I don't know who decided it, but I found myself in a daily struggle with rationality, and it is fine, as long as it brings me forward.

How come? What are you? To do this to me?

Nights and days all over you, caring for you

Tell me how come? What are you? To do this to me?

All this time for you, praying for a yes.


I know it sounds silly, but it didn't. Even more so when I later found out that my husband had asked the guys from the venue to play this when we walked in <3

The party was amazing, and I think part of that was due to the fact that it had been so long since the last time the team was able to gather and party properly, which used to be one of the beautiful things of this job and completely and suddenly disappeared 16 months ago.

My team was adorable - they even gifted me with a bottle of Sassicaia (honestly, they shouldn't have) - when they kicked us out because we were violating the curfew, they bought me the silly crown below. The pic is from the morning after.


I've also received my first shot of Pfizer and so did husband - we're scheduled for the second one mid-July. I cannot wait to go back to normal life.






03 June 2021

One moment in time

I've lived to be
The very best
I want it all
No time for less
I've laid the plans
Now lay the chance
Here in my hands
Give me ONE MOMENT IN TIME
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel
I will feel eternity
You're a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine
(Whitney Houston)

In case you are still wondering, I'm heading to the party in honor of my promotion to equity partner. 
It's been a crazy week, with even a couple of tears in honor of the young, skinny, naive girl who always thought she wasn't good enough for this and she needed to find a job, who faced things a person shouldn't have to face, who messed up, cleaned up her mess, who stood up straight.
Now it's time for fun - like an idiot I forgot the coke at home but I'm sure it'll be fun - it doesn't even matter I'm not skinny tonight. Tonight, it's about what I've done and what I've achieved.