03 June 2021

One moment in time

I've lived to be
The very best
I want it all
No time for less
I've laid the plans
Now lay the chance
Here in my hands
Give me ONE MOMENT IN TIME
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel
I will feel eternity
You're a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine
(Whitney Houston)

In case you are still wondering, I'm heading to the party in honor of my promotion to equity partner. 
It's been a crazy week, with even a couple of tears in honor of the young, skinny, naive girl who always thought she wasn't good enough for this and she needed to find a job, who faced things a person shouldn't have to face, who messed up, cleaned up her mess, who stood up straight.
Now it's time for fun - like an idiot I forgot the coke at home but I'm sure it'll be fun - it doesn't even matter I'm not skinny tonight. Tonight, it's about what I've done and what I've achieved.

5 comments:

Bathwater said...

Congratulations! I hope you enjoyed the party.

Aye Ell said...

WOOHOO!!!! Congratulations! I am SO happy for you! You earned it!

Anonymous said...

You are a champion!

Hades said...
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Hades said...

Congratulations!
I don't remember exactly the moment when I stopped caring about how skinny I was. It has been a long process, but so liberating. I'd love to have a precise memory in my head tho, I'm afraid this moment doesn't exist because thinness still triggers me. But I've grown out of it so i don't "behave" as an anorexic anymore, I just ignore the thoughts. Wonder if they'll be here forever. Anorexia seriously fucks you up.