27 January 2016

ordinary world

Came in from a foggy Thursday on the avenue
Though I heard Ana talking softly
I turned on the lights, the TV and the radio
still I can't escape the ghost of you

What is happening to it all?
Fattie someone said
Where is my friend Ana when I need you most?
Gone away!

But I won't cry for yesterday
there's an ordinary world somehow I have to find
And as I try to fast my way to the ordinary world
I will learn to restrict...

Passion or coincidence
once prompted you to say
Ana will tear us both apart
Well now Ana's gone out the window
past the rooftop, run away
left me in the horror of my Fat!

20 January 2016


Been away for long, changed job in the meanwhile.
Now I'm working even harder than I used to (although how is that even possible is something too difficult for my micro brain to figure).
The new job involves commuting by tube instead of walking to it (and no, walking is not an option). that sucks
Also, I thought I had a friend, but guess what? In two weeks, not once she had lunch with me (and we sit in the same office).
I feel so lonely
and I am so fat. So incredibly, disgustingly fat.
This year my goal is running 1000km.
Am currently on track, also thanks to last Sunday half marathon (lord, it was freezing!). We have another one planned next Sunday.
The irony is Hubby, wh's always been on the fat side, is at his lowest weight ever, while me... I'm over 21.5 of BMI, aka near my highest weight ever.