What never occurred me is, back when I was skinny, I was a real puta! Really guys, it never occurred me before. Now that I’m fat, I realize this depended on two factors:
- men used to hit on me all the time
- I was more confident in my skinny body than I am now in my fatty one.
(Thinking about it now, those days I should have worn a T-shirt à la David Guetta with a good slogan such as “FUCK ME, I’m Skinny!”).
I mean, let’s face it. I always thought Steve was a bit of a man-whore, and I recently found out I’ve had sex with more people he did (when I say I found out, it means, I found out and he didn’t, thanx god!).
I always thought that I was an average girl (I’m 28 and I’ve slept with circa 30 guys) dating prude guys (lol), but finding out that even Steve is less experienced than I am… Well, all I can say is, not displaying the full whore-mode when we first started dating was, in retrospect, a genius moves on my side!
Just to be clear, I haven’t slept with anyone but Steve and the ex over the last 5 years (and Alejandro, but I’d never admit this to anyone I know, plus he was an ex from the past so that shouldn't really count).
(all in all the saddest thing is, in my dreams I’m still the skinny bitch I was 10 years ago. Always. I never dream of fat Lucy, not even in nightmares. And when I look into the mirror, I still expect Lucy’s Shadw to stare back of me. Instead, it’s always fat Lucy)
Anyway, enough of my (past) sluttiness.
The thing is, girls, I’ve been busy and overworked, I may still be, but I’m back on the wagon.
Weighted 132.3lbs (60kg) on Monday morning, but I am back in control, with 129.9lbs (58.9kg) this morning and starting the Sacred Heart diet once again (I already prepared the soup last night + I hit the gym this morning after 15 days of laziness). A bit old-fashioned maybe, but the sacred heart diet always worked for me.
So, fuck fad diet haters, I’m going to rock it. I’ll need all your support girls!!
PS: Why am I not fasting? Well, I don’t feel ready for a real fast, and I lack the right motivation. I lack my all times favorite fast buddy, the great Marcus. But alas, Marcus went to university in autumn and has been MIA since. I hope you’re happy and skinny Marcus, but you are missed.
3 comments:
good job getting back on the wagon. you can definitely do it.
xo Chloe
Lucy io ti sostengo...ma quando arriverà il miracolo che aspetti?
*Un abbraccio forte*
Lucy!!
I feel so bad for being absent, but it was a really weird time lately. It feels so good being back :)
We definately have to do a fast together! I was trying to fast right now, but as it turns out: not that easy during exam weeks. I plan on starting to fast in two weeks, after the exams.
I hope you can find the motivation you need for a fast! We can rock this!
Love
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