Almost ready, almost dying

We all know the scale never lies
After all, I've only dropped 2.5kg
Yet everybody tells me "you look so much skinnier"
In the end, even I have to admit that, when I look into the mirror, I can see differences
Yet the weight's there.

The I went shopping there. Brought 5 pairs of trousers into the changing room, all of them were too big. That felt good man.

Could it be real? Could it be that I've really shifted from fat to muscle?

In any case

in 100hours I'll be in Greece
Asthma is killing me, and I can't wait to be by the sea
At night, sometimes, I cough so hard I end up crashing blood. It feels like dying.

Fuck off work fuck off everything

Big party tonight, it'll be snowing, it's a good way, I can't manage alcohol right now, it reduces my already small ability to breath
Then Sat and Sun will be dedicated to the gym
One quick training on Mon morning and by Tuesday I'll be laying in sun.

I even bought a bikini