"Interesting" was his reply. (I had texted him: "So.. when I said I’ll be traveling again in July what I meant is there’s a 90% chance I’ll be in California" ) Then he added:
"Lmk when you know" - followed by
"I'm on NY and India in jul"
I did not reply to this.
Meanwhile, since my life is never under control (and never was, let's face it), the situation has changed entirely:
- I will actually be in San Francisco again in late June for a few days, I probably won't in July
- I have been so busy I literally have not had the time and energy to even text Mischief, but interestingly he hasn't either.
My idea is to get him on the phone early next week, tell him about the SF and ask if he wants to see me or not. At this point I want to understand it, I'm not interested in being someone he chats with when he is bored if he chickens out when it's time to see each other.
This may sound aggressive, but I do not want bullshit. If he backs out, fine, I'll lick my wounds and move forward.
Weight-wise, I am exactly where I was at the last post, despite training like crazy. Still better than a gain though.
On a completely different note, I got tickets for a big Anyma show. If you've never heard of him, check out the Sphere show he did last year.
Song for this post: "Extreme ways" by Moby (one of the songs that keeps coming back into my life as decades go by)
6 comments:
I'm still reading the story. I'm just not sure I like where it is going :)
I have a feeling it will end up with a bubble popping. He will tell me he'd love to see me BUT (but he wants to be a good person, but he must be loyal to his family, but it would be unfair, you can fill it with anything that makes him look good). I know I'm being an awful person, but I decided a long long time ago this blog is a place for truth (at least, for my truth). BTW he texted all weekend, was supposed to call today and of course has not
I think your approach is solid. Cut the bullshit, no playing games. I hope it goes well for you, either way.
And for what it’s worth, I don’t think you’re being awful. You’re being human.
thank you sweetie
I still say, don't get emotionally attached, physically attached, I am not as against. Regardless of whether he is a good or bad guy, it sounds like he is using you as an emotional crutch, and that is not right.
I must say, it is extremely useful to have a man point of view on this. It really helps me figuring out what's going on - thanks Bath!!
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