ramblings of an over-worked, over-wight bitch

Work's overwhelming
I have a temperature, probably 'cause I took the flu vaccine yesterday
It always happens to me
I can't spell for fuck's sake today, not in Italian nor in English. (I never could spell in French, so taht doesn't count)

I'm supposed to take full care of one project at a time
I'm on two, and tonight at 20 the dataroom of a third is opening. Yes, firday night. It's because of American Thanksgiving I'm told. Well, fuck it, I'm sorry but should I be thankful for a full weekend of unpaid extra work? because the fuckers didn't manage to open it by wednesday? Fuck them all

Let the skyfall
oh no wait don't
I'm too fat to die, I need to be skinny first, so then I can stay skinny forever

I'm falling to pieces..

Hungry, for that flesh of mine
But I can't compete with a she wolf who has brought me to my knees

I'M FALLING TO PIECES

(after 10 days of ban from the gym due to a bad rush on my face (allergies) I'm back to training. so far 360 kcals eaten today, tonight it's going to be binge drinking though... I'll try to stick to smoking instead)

Plans

Next summer will ROCK.

I'm probably going here

And I'm going to be THIS skinny

So, everything will be perfect


(oh, and Mom? last night when I told you I'm not going to have kids, I wasn't lying. Sorry!)

time for action

Running. Sweating, throwing my legs in front of me for another step.
Panting, breathing, coughing, still running.
On to the pull-ups, my t-shirt is so sweaty it's beyond disgusting.
Drink water
The pull-ups are so hard, I realize even my neck muscles are extremely tense.

Why do they put sugar in vitamin tablets? why?

Shower

Count calories.

S wants to stop and buy doughnuts, resist and eat an apple.

Veg soup tonight, two felafel at lunch should be alright. One is more than enough.

I'm wearing a beautiful shirt I haven't fit in for two years.

I'd do anything to stay below 60 kilos now I'm here. I need to get to 55 before Christmas: it's called prevention

Nepal

Nepal was amazing as always.
200km on foot, up to 5550mt, days and days of awesomeness.

(somehow, I managed to drop a couple of kilos. Am working to drop more. I hope you are all doing well, I'm slowly catching up on your blogs)