25 May 2021

I wanted it bad

 The gym finally opened, and it was right about time - as suddenly yesterday my sister in law announced that she will get married on June 5, and I'm quite confident I cannot fit into any of my dresses.

I managed to do some spinning and then a yoga workout this morning, and man, did I miss real training! It's also good for the allergy - which has been a pain lately, I even passed out on Sunday due to low blood pressure as I haven't been sleeping a lot.

Of course it's not the same as running - I'll always miss running I think. I even dream of it sometimes, and it feels like these good dreams in which you can fly or you can breathe under water (you guys do et these right??).


I started this week at 160lbs, with a BMI of 25.4. I ama ashamed, but I feel I need to put this down, in order to focus on improving. In two days I'll be eligible to book my vax, and I'll probably be able to get my first shot in July. It's high time to leave covid behind, get out, work out and drop this belly.


On June 2nd the firm will announce the promotions to equity partners. I still do not know if I'll be in the announcement... If I get promoted, I'll go back to bright blonde hair. If I'm not, I'll go for a darker shade (ash blonde). It's a bit sad that I no longer care as much as I used to...

And I wanted it, I wanted it bad
But there were so many red flags
Now another one bites the dust
Yeah, let's be clear I'll trust no one
You did not break me
I'm still fighting for peace
I've got thick skin and an elastic heart
But your blade it might be too sharp
I'm like a rubber band until you pull too hard
I may snap and I move fast
But you won't see me fall apart
Cos I've got an elastic heart

(SIA)


07 May 2021

Wine binge

 Something that never fails to atsnonish me is this:

Puking is easier than taking a leak

You have a right hand right?

You fucking staff that down your throat till only your wrist shows

 trouble is you only puke what you ingested in the last 15/20minutes or so.

Fuckfuckfuckfuck

I even brought husband home and fuck I still need to deal with calories and drunk ness while I had to talk the cab driver into taking him on the ride

 I fucking want 

I don't know Any longer


















05 May 2021

Moved in

 I have been moving into the new apartment, and working (of course)

I have not been loosing weight (sadly, and of course)


I have a nice new walk-in closet. I have a perfect line of blouses hanging by colour, from white to black, which I no longer fit into.

I've also been having some good sex with my love in my beautiful bed - the pic was taken before we got the plants on the terrace ;-)


More in the next days