sharing the first tiny bits

Okay ladies,

this is (almost) it:

Imagine it in white, without the applications on the waist, ans well, it falls better than this (the model has her hands in the pockets, which I guess is something you don't normally do when walking down the aisle), and it gets right to my knees...
... and then yes, that's my wedding dress.

now, if I only can manage to drop like 100 pounds before the date, everything will be perfect
xoxoxo

Pills from Vacay

Vacation's over, and work is up to 16 hours per day
no serious posting

Anyway, here's a short story from vacation


On our last night in Mykonos we were partying at Paradise beach (Club Tropicana), which is crazy and amazing.
Halk nakked (string and minuscule bra) dancers on the blocks, and then we have this girl waiting our table, and honestly?
She was the best fitspo I've ever seen in y life. Like, the real thing.
So after a couple drinks, we chatted for a couple minutes and I blurted "You are so fit! You should be dancing on the blocks, not those flabby ass chicks!"
And she was all "Really? do you really think so?" (me nodding vigorously) "Oh thank-you so much for saying soooo!!!" and then she hugged me AND kissed me on the lips, with S watching and then laughing his ass off!

Stay strong girl, and check out, Ana Regzig is back!!

Blogger on vacation

If you look for me

I'll be here

I'll be fine
Actually, I'll be doing great.
I should be back by June 10, unless I decide not to come back ;-)

xoxoxoxo

Almost ready, almost dying

We all know the scale never lies
After all, I've only dropped 2.5kg
Yet everybody tells me "you look so much skinnier"
In the end, even I have to admit that, when I look into the mirror, I can see differences
Yet the weight's there.

The I went shopping there. Brought 5 pairs of trousers into the changing room, all of them were too big. That felt good man.

Could it be real? Could it be that I've really shifted from fat to muscle?

In any case

in 100hours I'll be in Greece
Asthma is killing me, and I can't wait to be by the sea
At night, sometimes, I cough so hard I end up crashing blood. It feels like dying.

Fuck off work fuck off everything

Big party tonight, it'll be snowing, it's a good way, I can't manage alcohol right now, it reduces my already small ability to breath
Then Sat and Sun will be dedicated to the gym
One quick training on Mon morning and by Tuesday I'll be laying in sun.

I even bought a bikini

failure

I
did
not
get
the promotion.

After two years of sacrifices, I seriously thought I would be the one to make it.

Clearly, I'm not good enough.

FUCK