High Hormones Monday

It’s Monday, which means I couldn’t weight myself this morning, and will have to wait until tomorrow to fully understand the damages of the weekend. I estimate my weight to be somewhere around 127lbs, again. I just hope it isn’t over 127.

Last night I was at Bro’s place, and he said the Pirate was in town for the day, but had declined his invitation for BBQ. Bro’s words were “Well, he came with his girlfriend so I guess he didn’t want to come to avoid his GF meeting you”

Men are whores, but whatever.

The Boyfriend won’t come to see me for my birthday. He’ll be in Budapest for a stag, and then he has his brother in law’s birthday. Cool huh? (Sarcasm all around) I guess I’ll consider myself allowed to indulge in some guilty pleasure, and as you may well understand I’m NOT talking about food.
In any case, I’m on for the next regatta (June 20), but I’m not sailing with the Pirate; I’ll be on Bro’s team! And we’d better beat the Pirate’s ass, or Bro will hear me out loud. Oh, and here’s the funny thing: the regatta will start some 15km south from home, on the lake of course, but we’ll be hosting a huge party the night before so I won’t be ready in time to sail the distance. Instead, I’ll ride my Vespa to the spot. However, Bro won’t be able to pick me up from the pier, so I had to promise I’ll swim the distance to his boat as soon as he gets there. This is going to be funny + it will give me the perfect excuse to change through 2 swimsuits over the day…
Sooooo people… I need to be 120lbs (possibly less) by June 20.
Which is why I’m going to get into poker face’s weight loss competition. Oh, okay, maybe it’s also because he’s one of the most awesome in blogorexia!! I just hope he won’t require daily updates ‘cause I’ll be in France starting tomorrow and I won’t have my scale… we’ll see!

Fitness goal of the week: stop being content with all the cardio stuff and throw in more abs!!
I need some eye candy. Like this.

PS thank-you for the comments! (the tissue idea is not bad, but I'm not brave enough to face Steve's bathroom... who knows what kind of creatures live in there... Anyway, Steve doesn't believe me, but he doesn't nag me about eating. At least not yet.

"I ate before I came"

When I go at Steve's place, at night, to share drinks or (more often) herbal tea, he always offers food.

I always give him the usual:

I have the feeling he doesn't believe it anymore.

Is this the way?

125.8 lbs





small steps, big, HUGE patience.

I shall not fuck up over the weekend

I shall not fuck up over the weekend

I shall not fuck up over the weekend

(maybe I could record this and have it on my ipod playing all weekend long?)

I've seen so much in so many places, so many heartaches, so many faces, so many dirty things, YOU COULDN'T EVEN BELIEVE

I had pasta. with cheese. and white wine

I could blame it on Steve. I could blame in on the rain.

But the truth is, I can only blame it on my weakness.

126.3lbs

I need to get some sleep.

Random thoughts

126.1 lbs this morning.

Small steps in the right direction.

Gym tonight, gym tomorrow morning, and on Saturday I have planned a 40km bike trip with dad.

For the next regatta (June 20), I want my body to look like this.

I keep going out every night. It's a bit too much.


Ok, let's be honest. Tomorrow I'm attending a fashion event. In Milan. This means most girl will have a BMI of 18 or less. Ugh. I'm going to write a QMNMD temporary tattoo on the inner part of my wrist (Quod Me Nutrit Me Destruit). As a reminder.

Last night I went out with my high school best friend. She thinks I'm obsessed with dieting. She keeps telling everyone she's so lucky she hasn't gained a lb in the last year. I saw her waiting for me at the corner, and it looked like she had a giant doughnut wrapped around her waist.

She's as tall as I am, but she must be at least 10 lbs heavier than I am, and has no muscle at all. And she wonders why she hasn't gotten laid over the last year...

At least she's happy with her body, which is more thant I can say about myself!

PS Check Chitosan on wikipedia. I tried it slowly at first because it may give problems to those allergic to shell food (which I am) but my body seems to cooperate for once.

Apparently it doesn't allow your body to digest carbs and fats. Downside: expect massive poops 15 minutes after eating. NOT recommandable for glamour soirées.